Rewind!

"I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you."

Genesis 28:15

This is the promise that my God has given me. Today, I realized the horrible effects of idolatry. My God is my only God. When I allow fear, and pride, and cowardice to rule my heart, I demote God from being first in my life. Never again. The arts is..it's what I do. Sure it hasn't been as present in my life recently, but it has never been absent. My passion is God given. I was made to worship, and by not using the tools that the Lord has given me to worship Him...what a waste!

I always learn things from my bestie. She reminded me of God's perfect love, and how his love can not be bound to fear. I have to be willing to go where the Lord calls me to go, using whatever he calls me to use.

I feel so much like the typical 'Black Woman' right now. I want to do things for myself and by myself. I feel a freeing independence that will allow me to soar. I choose to start writing again, and recording, and finding someone who can teach me everything about music production and how to strengthen my voice. I'll find somewhere to record, and someone to help me with my compositions. Maybe i'll even make a myspace page...yeah. that's my goal for the end of this year. I'm gonna enroll in dance classes...maybe i'll finally attempt to be good at tap. This will be good. I don't need anyone to help me, but I want people to help me, and I'm sure they're all around. i just haven't been looking very far.